And. I always feel guilty for liking a boy. Like it's obvious to everyone but me that it's a terrible idea and they're all just waiting for me to come to my senses and stop acting like an idiot. I think i should stop hanging out with him as much. I don't want to sacrafice my other relationships to one that's shaky and strange and lonely becuase they don't know you enough to understand anything, I mean exciting, sure, but haven't I been on this ride before? I guees i just need to find the balance.